Why Poser Mama?

This blog represents the process of owning my identity.


As a mother.  As a Christian.  As a woman and a writer and an agent of change.

I often feel like a poser.  I'm not talking about fakeness or hypocrisy here, though there is plenty of that to go around.  I mean... I often feel like I am not quite enough to be the real deal.

I have two children.  I have carried them, birthed them, rocked them, diapered them, fed them, loved them with a knock-the-air-out-of-you love.  Yet I often look at other mothers as "real" moms, as if I'm only posing as one until I actually become one some day.  I'm a poser in other ways, too. 

I don't think I am alone in this kind of thinking.


Also, I grew up listening to punk music.


I still love listening to punk music, but I don't go to shows anymore. 
I've had purple hair, but I don't have any tattoos or extraneous piercings. 
I have a record player but not a single Sex Pistols album. 

In short, I feel safer calling myself a poser than I do calling myself punk.  That being said, there are certain elements of the punk rock culture that continue to inform my life on a daily basis.  These include:
  • DIY 
  • Independence & questioning the status quo
  • Social justice & direct action
  • Collaboration & community

"The whole punk ethic was do-it-yourself, and I've always been very literal, especially as a kid.  When they said that anybody can do it, I was like 'Okay, that's me.'" - Michael Stipe